reenico♥
Reen ; Nurin Syarafina .
Not nice . Not even one bit .
Goodluck (:
ask me anyth ♥
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Head up people , this would be my longest post ever .
Bear with me okay ? Especially you , love .
For once , im gonna tell you how i feel .
It may get on your nerves , but on the other hand , it
may help you figure my abstruse life .
The first few months we dated ,
i sensed an aura that lighted my life up .
We were madly , deeply in love . Well , i was .
The elation that leaves a mark on the ground with every
step i take , i can never forget anything about that .
*giggles*
While we very jollying along the corridors of the school
and also at the canteen , my melancholy life at home
still haunts me . It traumatizes me every second .
Sometimes i feel so ashamed of myself ,
that i bring in my problems at home to you .
And when what i was taught at home ,
i treat you the same , i feel so stupid and
careless . And ive come to face that what happens
back home has pierced through my heart like a rock thrown
into a bottomless pit . So deep it ruins myself . And most of the
time , i feel as thought you deserve a girl who won't hurt you
countless times , yet on the other hand , i don't want you to leave .
I know ive been bringing up about us breaking up ,
but im just so mentally disoriented , i don't know what to do
and im such at a loss . I just know that , when i put aside everything
that we've been through , i know you've been the one there for
me , making me happy .
You're so compassionate and forgiving , no one has treated me
this way in my entire life .
My life is with you , without you for a day makes me so afraid
and lonely . Like can never face anyone else .
Thru these 7 months , you teach me how to stand up for myself ,
how to be proud of who i am , and how to be what i wanna be .
Today , i take an oath , that im never gonna leave you , not
anymore . Im done taking your tears , im done tearing you apart .
And i hate it that if shes a friend ,
you text her or she calls you .
I don't understand why they can't wait till a schooling day .
I don't understand why you can't wait till a schooling day .
Is it smth so important ?
And im really convinced that we can solve out problems by OURSELVES .
You said that to me when we were together .
NO ONE ELSE , just the 2 of us .
)': Did you forget already ?
Have you forgotten every happy days that we had
together ?
I know my pp8 is out , but you don't even ask me to call you anymore .
And you'd only send me a goodnight msg if i ask you for one .
Sometimes you don't ask me where i am .
You don't suggest to meet me anymore .
These things use to make me so happy .
And im sad and so downcast )':
Its like you dnt try anymore , but you do .
Everytime , ill try to avoid myself from
falling in love with you too much , but i can't .
The fact is i can't let go at all . No matter how much i hurt ,
i can't let go of anything that takes over me .
And im confused , whether to be in this relationship ,
which are bound to have more storms in future ,
or to leave , because i dnt want you to end up getting hurt .
Which btw , you already are tired of crying for me .
Shame on you for crying in front of people because of your gf huh ?
I feel it too , no doubt , try me .
)':
Bear with me okay ? Especially you , love .
For once , im gonna tell you how i feel .
It may get on your nerves , but on the other hand , it
may help you figure my abstruse life .
The first few months we dated ,
i sensed an aura that lighted my life up .
We were madly , deeply in love . Well , i was .
The elation that leaves a mark on the ground with every
step i take , i can never forget anything about that .
*giggles*
While we very jollying along the corridors of the school
and also at the canteen , my melancholy life at home
still haunts me . It traumatizes me every second .
Sometimes i feel so ashamed of myself ,
that i bring in my problems at home to you .
And when what i was taught at home ,
i treat you the same , i feel so stupid and
careless . And ive come to face that what happens
back home has pierced through my heart like a rock thrown
into a bottomless pit . So deep it ruins myself . And most of the
time , i feel as thought you deserve a girl who won't hurt you
countless times , yet on the other hand , i don't want you to leave .
I know ive been bringing up about us breaking up ,
but im just so mentally disoriented , i don't know what to do
and im such at a loss . I just know that , when i put aside everything
that we've been through , i know you've been the one there for
me , making me happy .
You're so compassionate and forgiving , no one has treated me
this way in my entire life .
My life is with you , without you for a day makes me so afraid
and lonely . Like can never face anyone else .
Thru these 7 months , you teach me how to stand up for myself ,
how to be proud of who i am , and how to be what i wanna be .
Today , i take an oath , that im never gonna leave you , not
anymore . Im done taking your tears , im done tearing you apart .
And i hate it that if shes a friend ,
you text her or she calls you .
I don't understand why they can't wait till a schooling day .
I don't understand why you can't wait till a schooling day .
Is it smth so important ?
And im really convinced that we can solve out problems by OURSELVES .
You said that to me when we were together .
NO ONE ELSE , just the 2 of us .
)': Did you forget already ?
Have you forgotten every happy days that we had
together ?
I know my pp8 is out , but you don't even ask me to call you anymore .
And you'd only send me a goodnight msg if i ask you for one .
Sometimes you don't ask me where i am .
You don't suggest to meet me anymore .
These things use to make me so happy .
And im sad and so downcast )':
Its like you dnt try anymore , but you do .
Everytime , ill try to avoid myself from
falling in love with you too much , but i can't .
The fact is i can't let go at all . No matter how much i hurt ,
i can't let go of anything that takes over me .
And im confused , whether to be in this relationship ,
which are bound to have more storms in future ,
or to leave , because i dnt want you to end up getting hurt .
Which btw , you already are tired of crying for me .
Shame on you for crying in front of people because of your gf huh ?
I feel it too , no doubt , try me .
)':