12092008-13112008 .

The most Lovable person anyone could ever

have , Muhammad Aqasyah; Babyboy ):

Maybe in my previous posts ,
it may seem as if im moving on ,
but im stuck here , with no answers
to why he doesn't love me anymore .
Im stuck here , with no answers to why
we ended just like that .
Im stuck on the clock without it ticking ,
with no answers at all , to why everything
went wrong .

And how much it hurts me ,
whenever someone asks how things are going
between me and him , and how suffering and miserable i feel
that id have to say 'its over' or 'we broke up already' .

And to think that all the promises you made ,
with our secret handshake which always tickles my tummy
whenever we do it, all those promises that are a part of my heart ,
now erase or burnt .

I don't know how strong i am right now ,
and i don't know how much longer i can hold on .
I don't know if i can go through it .
I don't wanna be stuck on the clock like how i did
during my last relationship .
You made me forget him Aqasyah ,
why must you make me forget you then ?

Im strong physically ,
but i swear im really weak inside .
Im a realist for gods sake and i know
whats good for me and whats not .
And a heartbreak right now is not good for me .
):