I just never would have thought that we, me , you, us , would treat each other like strangers .

My phone bill , its never gonna reach hundreds . Your midnight calls , your problems , your singing , your voice , your nonsense , when can i hear about them again ? Im never gonna hear about them again . I know , you lost your phone , but you used to call me with your housephone , and now , no more of your house number on my call log . Your warmth on my hand , my face , my shoulder , when can i feel them again ? I can't anymore , cus you don't call me to ask if we're gonna meet . You don't even wanna meet me anymore . I , i don't know what to do . I don't wanna feel like this again . I don't wanna feel like how i had to suffer 8 months because of someone . I don't wanna lose a bestfriend , a lover , a part of me . I know ive been selfish through out our r/ship . Im not gonna be that selfish anymore . its my fault , i know . Im not gonna be like those girls who think its only the guys that are at fault . I KNOW IM AT FAULT FOR ALWAYS ... for always scolding you cus you break our promises , for always lying to me , for always asking my friends to lie to me , for always making me worried , for always waiting for your stupid calls that never come ! Come on babyboo , help me ): Im breaking down , tearing apart , feeling useless . fuck . shit .