♥

my hopes all crushed with my heart a lil hush .

If you'd noticed , my hearts broken and that smile forced . With the love ones' heart not even there , being drunked and all .

but my bro somehow made it abit okay . He lent me his lap to lie on , and i love him for that .

This cap made it all seem okay too , cus its Iqbals' cap , and he makes me happy cus he's my bestfriend .

But most of all , she made me happy , cus she cared and she laughed and she cried together with me .

Yet , today , my heart is crying so badly , my muscles didn't have a sense of urgency , my eyes have yet rained , but i think its gonna drizzle soon , followed by thunder and lightning .

love just disappoints me , alot . And i gave up , gave up on love , on everything we shared .
What hurts me the most is

" I won't punish you . Just do whatever you want , i don't wanna care or scold or punish you .

You can smoke , get locked up , get drunk , get sick , flirt , have another gf . I don't wanna care anymore "

Replied .

"B , if thats your decision i cannot do anitink . Thanx bbygerl !"

Love didn't even bother to comfort me , didn't even bother to listen to my cries .

Bestfriend , i really need you now , need you here . I can't wait to go out with you tmrw with your friends so i can get away from a broken fantasy . I don't need to tell love because love would just get mad and expect me to comfort it . Love , its saliva on my tongue with a little tinge of cigarette , it lingers my lips . Love , its skin , its soft beautiful skin on me , giving me lil orgasms ,

it still lingers on my body . Love , your love , your love that has wrapped my heart , love made a little whole through the wrappers , your love no longer lingers anymore ):