Reminiscing about the past again .
I still have a folder of Caleb in my phone .
4 months since we broke off .
Now i realise how hard it is to move on .
Never thought he'd be taking someone like her . How different
he was when he was with me . How he's treating her , with so much care
as if shes fragile . I realised that i wasn't that important . This is how a
heart breaks . *I miss texting him at night . I miss talking to him like a bestfriend .
I miss the way he asks me to change for the better , ask me to sleep when he sleeps .
I really really miss him being a friend . He treated me so well even after we broke up .
But now , not a single drop of f/ship . For the first 2 months of the break up ,
i was trying to date guys , to make the guy a replacement . But i failed cause i was too
tied up . The third month , i was alrdy sick and tired of dating .
Eventho this particular guy infatuated me . Im just afraid that
he was like any other guy ive been with . Mostly downright cruel .
And i was also afraid that i was gonna make him a replacement too ,
so i said to take things slow . But slow kinda got him further away from me .
When all that happened , i neglected my friends . Dee , Radyah , Teesha .
Thank god Dee is still by my side . Radyah and Teesha ? Gone and making
hatred . Idk what happened to them so i decided to really not care anymore .
Fee has been there for me this holiday . Dee is also one of my support .
I lost a part of my family , I lost two friends , and i lost myself .
But i realised that the past isn't what we're suppose to think about ,
instead the future . So here i am putting my past in this post to let it out of me .
And the reason ive decided to do this is cause im buying time ,
im waiting for him to go online . Cause i really really miss him .
So G'bye people (: